“Smiling makes you feel better about yourself, even if you don’t feel like it. And it always makes other people think better of you.” – Anonymous

 

Colleagues would always say that it’s nice to see me every day because I always have this smile.  Others even ask me how on earth I can put on a smile like that.  That’s why I borrowed the famous quotation above.

But, yesterday was a difficult day for me at work.  Frustration overpowered me and I was really close to giving up.  By giving up I mean, I am close to resigning, leaving my retirement fund (since I’ve been here for 9 years and that’s not easy) and forgetting about my future plan of traveling the world.

In the past whenever I get to feel this way I usually talk to my father and tell him that I want to find a new job and he’d tell me that it’s not wise for me to give up and explain the financial impact it might have.  But before doing so, I would usually consult my friends about my decision so that they’d help me convince my father that it’s not just about the money and the future but I always fail to convince him and myself as well.

This is my 3rd department and 3rd business unit in my 9 years of stay here.  Like what I’ve said this isn’t my 1st time to feel this and I have survived 2 similar situations before.  But this time it was different because I have 2 failed attempts of convincing my boss that my current work just doesn’t fit me.  I need to go back to what I’m good at and it is the numbers.

Talked to 2 good friends and they said that this is the stage (where I am at right now) where employees should be at the work where they think they’d be retiring to.  In short, work should be felt like it is work.  It should be something that you enjoy doing.

I just find it funny because I sent an email to my college friends asking them to pray for me that I’d go through this dilemma and I’ve got this reply, “Oh, I didn’t get the idea that you are having such a hard time on your life which looks so perfect!”  You see that’s how tough I am at least what they see from the outside, that’s the power of smile.

I know that this too shall pass.  And as I always say, “Even crappy days end”.  I need to be strong and I know that I am.  I’m ending this post with the lyrics from the famous song Smile by Nat King Cole. 

“Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you’ll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll see the sun come shining through for you”

 

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