Love is such a good feeling especially when you are not looking for it.  You’d see signs and you’d realize that you have stumbled upon it.  One sign is you’d find yourself smiling and the only reason you have is just because you’re thinking of that certain person.

I didn’t expect that I’ll find someone interesting, someone who’ll connect with me in a way that I have not connected to with anyone else before.  The constant interaction and exchanges led me to where I am today.  But, I don’t want to complicate things and I know that this isn’t part of the plan.  Everything is clear right from the start.

Also, I just have accepted the fact that there are things in life that we want to have but we don’t get them and in my opinion and what I have learned is all we need to do is move on and find another dream to chase.  Especially in terms of love, when things don’t go our way, we can’t be bitter about it.  We should remember that we love the person because we just do and not because of the anticipation of possible reciprocation of love.

I know I may sound too pessimistic and I’m not sure what I’m talking about but I’m just afraid that I’ll start havoc and I’d end up hurting. 

But what I’m sure of today, regardless of the situation, I’m ready to love him and I’ll love him more than anyone.  I’ll be the first one waiting and I’d be the last to leave and all I want to do is make him the happiest person alive.

I know that I can certainly make him smile but not the smile that he’ll draw his happiness from.  I just hope that I can bring him the happiness he deserves could even be possible in the future.

These are just some of the things I have in my mind, pardon my brain fart.  Don’t worry I won’t and don’t do sadness. 

 

Some say that opportunity knocks only once and that thought has been bugging me for days that turned into weeks now.  I’ve been trying my best to be ready for it.  I mean, today nothing has been declared yet but I can feel that everything will be laid down soon.  I asked for it.  I don’t want to make a wrong decision and have consulted a lot of friends about this.  From where I am standing right now, it feels like I’m on the crossroads.  There are a lot of things that I have to weigh and consider.

  • Opportunity – This is an opportunity that I should take.  It is career advancement for crying out loud. 
  • Financial Return – Though I don’t exactly know how much is the translated increase still it will be an additional that I didn’t foresee.  Not to mention that it would be the third time this year, how lucky can I get, right?
  • Time – This is where it gets tricky.  I thought I would be done with the long hours of working and weekends would be spent at home or other activities I may have.  Staying longer hours in the office seems to be a trade-off that I couldn’t just deal with.
  • Environment – This is what I fear most, the turnover of employee in the department has been really crazy and a little bit disheartening.  Aside from this, once I take this I’ll be working for a bunch of Gods and Demi-Gods of the present. 

See there are lots at stake on the table.  I’ve not included the comfort zone factor as this would mean that I’m still immature.  I’ve also excluded the fact that I won’t get to see someone on a daily basis that used to be the fuel of inspiration to my day-to-day struggle of going to work.

Right from the start there is an obvious choice, a choice that I have been in-denial of.  And at the end of the day, obviously there’s no more question to what the decision would be.  It is just a matter of time and formality until I’d take this new challenge and assignment.  It is a smart and the right thing to do. 

Come this August, I’ll be celebrating my 11th year in the company and this would be a great gift from the company.  I’ve always considered myself as lucky for being in the right place and at the right time.  And in return with the right attitude, I try my best to be the best and give my full devotion in helping the management carry-out and achieve the company’s objectives.

I just hope that with this opportunity I won’t have to sacrifice the so-called work-life balance that I previously have with my former job assignment.  But nonetheless, management, I thank you for this opportunity.  Cheers!