What is static?  It is a noun, it is the crackling or hissing noises on a telephone, radio, or other telecommunications system.  It is what we hear from the television when it has signed off.

You might wonder why on earth am I thinking of static all of a sudden.  Well, it is brought about my Six Feet Under addiction.  Static was the title of the 2nd to the last episode of the show.  This is one of my favorite episodes in the series.  It was the episode after the very heavy and saddening episode of Nate’s funeral.  I literally felt heaviness on my chest area after watching the funeral.  I felt like I’ve lost someone special even if I don’t exactly love Nate or maybe I’m just in denial.

Anyway, the conversation between Nate and Claire in the graveyard caught my attention.  This reminded me why I love the show.  After days of thinking of an inspiration or topic for my blog then I just hit the jackpot.  Here’s what has transpired:

Claire: Why did you have to die? It really sucks. Everything’s unraveling since you’re gone.

Nate: That’s not true.

Claire: It feels that way. I miss you. I miss you so fucking much!

Nate: I miss you, too.

Claire: You know how I always used to tell you, you weren’t Dad, after Dad died? It was such a waste of time thinking that way.

Nate: No, it’s just part of how you dealt with it. It kept you from missing Dad so much.

Claire: No, it kept me from ever knowing you as much as I really could have, and now you are so completely fucking gone! It’s just …

Nate: Claire –

Claire: What? It sucks!

Nate: Stop listening to the static.

Claire: What the fuck does that mean?

Nate: Nothing. It just means that everything in the world is like this transmission, making its way across the dark. But everything – death, life, everything – it’s all completely suffused with static. [makes static sounds] You know? But if you listen to the static too much, it fucks you up.

Nate has made so much sense.  Listening to static is like listening to the whole world but yourself.  Static is the state where our pain is greater than everything that we feel but we end up denying ourselves to feel it.  It is like being afraid to be vulnerable because we are too afraid to admit it to ourselves, too afraid to see the people surrounding us to see that we are grieving.  It’s trying to be strong for everyone except for your own self.  Nate was right when we listen to the static, it is the time when we all start to fuck up.  Static is nothing.  The world that we know is too chaotic to listen to.  When we try to do things just for the world we end up with nothing.  It’s total injustice to our existence.  It is the opposite of the fulfillment of our existence. 

A death of someone we love shouldn’t put us in static.  Life begins not only when someone is born more often than not, life begins when someone else’s dies.  I don’t know when did I start accepting death and embracing its role in our lives.  And I’m assuring you this when you start to appreciate death, it is the exact same time that you’d appreciate life.  This is why I plan to seize the day and live every day as if it was my last.  Today when I hear of death I only think of how I enjoyed my life and how thankful I am for each day I have lasted on earth.  I guess that is how Nate wanted his family to be.  A life built on acceptance and a life less static.

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With all the news about the end of the world last week, I’ve realized how indifferent I am about the topic.  I am a firm believer of seizing the day and that makes me be at peace with the idea of death.  Many have considered it morbid while some doubted my weird point of view.  But, I just think that I’ve lived my life at the fullest and I try to enjoy everything that comes my way.  I try my best not to expect anything not only to be satisfied but to have less chances of frustration as well.

 

Anyway, I think another reason is because I loved watching Six Feet Under.  Six Feet Under is an American drama television series created and produced by Alan Ball. It premiered on the premium cable network HBO, spanning five seasons with 63 episodes. The show revolves around members of the Fisher family, who run their funeral home in Los Angeles, and their friends and lovers. The series traces these characters’ lives over the course of five years. The ensemble drama stars Peter Krause, Michael C. Hall, Frances Conroy, Lauren Ambrose, Freddy Rodriguez, Mathew St. Patrick and Rachel Griffiths as the show’s seven central characters. (credits to wikipedia.org)

 

Six Feet Under received widespread critical acclaim, particularly for its writing and acting, and consistently drew high ratings for the HBO network. Six Feet Under has frequently been described by critics as one of the greatest television series of all time as well as having one of the greatest series finales of all time. (credits to wikipedia.org)

 

On one level, the show is a conventional family drama, dealing with issues such as interpersonal relationships, infidelity, and religion. At the same time, it is a show distinguished by its unblinking focus on the topic of death. Each episode begins with a death – anything from drowning or heart attack to sudden infant death syndrome – and that death usually sets the tone for each episode, allowing the characters to reflect on their current fortunes and misfortunes in a way that is illuminated by the death and its aftermath. The show also has a strong dosage of dark humor and surrealism running throughout. (credits to wikipedia.org)

 

Aside from the good and strong plot, what I loved with the show is the use of characters having an imaginary conversation with the deceased.  For example, Nate, David, and Federico sometimes “converse” with the person who died at the beginning of the episode, while they are being embalmed or planning or during the funeral. The show is trying to capture real life by representing one character’s internal dialogue by exposing it as an external conversation which is like a concept of conscience and role playing of our subconscious mind.

 

To wit an example of this conversation is Season Four Finale Episode’s last scene when David woke up in the morning and went down and had this conversation with his father.

 

Nathaniel Sr.: You aren’t even grateful, are you?

David: Grateful? For the worst fucking experience of my life?

Nathaniel Sr..: You hang onto your pain like it means something, like it’s worth something. Well, let me tell ‘ya, it’s not worth shit. Let it go. Infinite possibilities, and all he can do is whine.

David: Well, what am I supposed to do?

Nathaniel Sr.: What do you think? You can do anything, you lucky bastard, you’re alive! What’s a little pain compared to that?

David: It can’t be that simple.

Nathaniel Sr.: [putting his arm around David and pulling him closer] What if it is?

The series opened my eyes to see life in a different perspective.  Embracing the fact that death is inevitable instilling in my mind that I should live each day as if it was my last day on earth.

 

I have yet to finish the series and I’m down to the last 9 episodes.  I can’t wait to see the ending since 2 of my friends who have followed the show as well said that it is probably one of the best series ever made and has the best season finale ever.

 

 

Are you familiar with Kübler-Ross model or the 5 Stages of Grief?  I was just reminded of these stages as I was watching Six Feet Under.  I don’t know if I’m just right down weird and morbid to think about death.  It has been inside my mind for the past two weeks I guess.  I was even able to write a haiku about death which goes like this,

 “Death will set you free, 

Embrace peace and solitude,   

Happiness fulfilled” 

I’m not sure if I’m really on the 5th stage of grief because I don’t remember going through the first 3 stages of grief.  Yes, I have been depressed few weeks back but I don’t think that’s a good reason for me to give up and ask God to take away my life back.  

Maybe, I’m just curious of what would my friends reactions be like.  Or maybe, I’m just really selfish and I don’t think about those who love me and those who depend on me.  I have always believed that one shouldn’t be afraid of death since it is inevitable.  What one should be afraid of is not living his life to the fullest.  Death is my inspiration why I’m seizing the day.  It is my driving force why I love to travel and discover the world out there.  This is the reason why I don’t think when I go to sleep and surrender my soul to the lord.  I don’t plan, I just let things be.  I have entrusted my life to God and I am ready anytime he’s ready to take me back. 

Okay I think I’m sounding too serious already but these are just my honest thought about my life and impending death.  Anyway, I’d just like to share the 5 stages of grief just so you’d understand what I’m talking about.  And do me a favor if I’ll be on 6 feet under the ground anytime soon just say a little prayer for me. Thanks! 

   

The progression of states is:   

  1. Denial – “I feel fine.”; “This can’t be happening, not to me.”
    Denial is usually only a temporary defense for the individual. This feeling is generally replaced with heightened awareness of situations and individuals that will be left behind after death.
  2. Anger – “Why me? It’s not fair!”; “How can this happen to me?”; “Who is to blame?”
    Once in the second stage, the individual recognizes that denial cannot continue. Because of anger, the person is very difficult to care for due to misplaced feelings of rage and envy. Any individual that symbolizes life or energy is subject to projected resentment and jealousy.
  3. Bargaining – “Just let me live to see my children graduate.”; “I’ll do anything for a few more years.”; “I will give my life savings if…”
    The third stage involves the hope that the individual can somehow postpone or delay death. Usually, the negotiation for an extended life is made with a higher power in exchange for a reformed lifestyle. Psychologically, the individual is saying, “I understand I will die, but if I could just have more time…”
  4. Depression – “I’m so sad, why bother with anything?”; “I’m going to die… What’s the point?”; “I miss my loved one, why go on?”
    During the fourth stage, the dying person begins to understand the certainty of death. Because of this, the individual may become silent, refuse visitors and spend much of the time crying and grieving. This process allows the dying person to disconnect oneself from things of love and affection. It is not recommended to attempt to cheer up an individual who is in this stage. It is an important time for grieving that must be processed.
  5. Acceptance – “It’s going to be okay.”; “I can’t fight it, I may as well prepare for it.”
    In this last stage, the individual begins to come to terms with their mortality or that of their loved one.