Sara Bareilles’ Gravity is one of the most played songs in my Ipod so I have decided to write about it.  I’m a lyrics person I just love reading the lyrics and analyzing what it means.  But I have to say the song must have a catchy tune first.  And in this case, Sara’s voice, its lyrics and melody just make me down and down in a good way.  Maybe, this is one of my morbid guilty pleasures I don’t know.

And most of the time I’d get to quote a line or two from a song and when I was re-reading the lyrics while it is being played I just found myself undecided.  Every stanza and line is strong and it has made a certain impact on me that I can’t explain.  Well, I guess because I have been down and every line seems to be a perfect description of me.

Today, I can only think of someone that reminds me of this song and perhaps it is because of the last few lines.  Here it goes,

“But you’re neither friend nor foe

Though I can’t seem to let you go

The one thing that I still know

Is that you’re keeping me down

You’re keeping me down

You’re on to me, on to me and all over

Something always brings me back to you”

 

But unlike this song I think I have realized that he shouldn’t be keeping me down.  I have been down, brushed him off and something always brings me back to him… and that is love.  But I have just decided that I should be strong and I need to move on.  I need to be distant because it will only be harder for me if I’ll let him from keeping me down.  See what realizations I get from just listening to songs.  This is why I love music and why I love this song.

 

I have posted the link of the video, check it out.

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“As it happens sometimes a moment settled and hovered and remained. For much more than a moment… and sound stopped… and movement stopped. For much, much more than a moment and then, the moment was gone.” Lines from One Tree Hill

 

Have you ever felt a certain time in your life that you’d like to be stuck with it? Finally a certain instant you felt like that the world isn’t against you. A place where everything has stopped and you are with the person you’d like to spend your whole life with. The single second that you’d wish you had since you have discovered love.

 

 My life is different. It isn’t that easy. I chose it to be. This is my fault. This is my life.

 

I have been dreamy these past few weeks. I tend to linger on some things that I tried to claim as mine. Making it last for more than it should have been. Creating a vivid picture of what I have always dreamed of. Until the dose of reality hit me hard over and over, one after the other, leaving me awake, lonely and hopeless from the supposedly happy moments. Yes, the moment was gone. With just a snap of a finger, it was gone. It was just a dream.

 

I have never been close to anything like this. But, I’m not desperate to do anything just for this. I’m not even compromising anything especially if it can hurt someone just to have this.

 

I just ask of a simple thing. This is to have a moment of my own, to have someone to hold me tight on nights that I am afraid of something underneath my bed. To be locked in someone’s arms with the assurance that there’ll be a day to look forward to. I don’t want to have just a single on the spot happiness. I want something that will last. I want something that can brace a strong storm. I want something genuine. It doesn’t have to be perfect; it only needs to be true. Not just a dream!

This is a repost from my old blog.  I am running out of time and concept to a new post won’t come up so I decided to put a previous post which reflects my emotional struggle when I watched my favorite show One Tree Hill.  This is a disclaimer, I don’t really sound this dramatic, and I only do when I get to watch or read something that triggers the whole drama mode.  But I am not shy about that fact, I actually love being dramatic.  Ha-ha!
 
 

 

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Holidays are over and the sad reality bites!  But I guess I have to focus on the things that I am thankful of from the past holiday.  One of which is the DVD movie marathons that my brother, Jejo and I did. 

And from the movies that we’ve watched, we loved the movie of Adam Sandler and Don Cheadle “Reign over me”.  After watching it, I started wondering if this was shown here in the Philippines and if so I couldn’t believe that I missed the movie in the big screen and if it wasn’t well the movie goers have missed a very remarkable movie.

The story was about two college roommates, their lives took different paths but they found themselves on common ground.  Alan (Don Cheadle) finally got the chance to see Charlie (Adam Sandler) on the streets of New York.  Charlie lost his family from the tragic 9/11 Terrorists’ Attack in New York.  Suffering from a post-traumatic syndrome, he managed to withdraw himself from everyone and pretended that the family didn’t exist.  Alan upon finding out his friend’s situation, realizing that their friendship will help him (Charlie) come out of his emotional abyss and eventually help him out of his grief.

This one will certainly make you cry especially the part where Charlie started to talk to Alan, describing his daughters one by one and his wife and the poodle.  You could and would feel how hard it is to lose someone and much worse a family.  And the scene from the court was really heart breaking.  I couldn’t believe how inconsiderate, mean and torturing his in-laws and counsel could get.  Just because they’ve thought that he isn’t in pain, that he isn’t grieving for the lost of his family.

Let me quote some lines from the movie:

Charlie Fineman: I don’t need to talk about her or look at pictures… ’cause the truth is, a lot of times, I see her… on the street. I walk down the street, I see her in someone else’s face… clearer than any of the pictures you carry with you. I get that you’re in pain, but you got each other. You got each other! And I’m the one who’s gotta see her and the girls all the time. Everywhere I go! I even see the dog. That’s how fucked up I still am! I look at a German shepherd, I see our goddamn poodle. All right… All right…

Charlie Fineman: I have no one. At least you two have each other.

[Charlie kisses Ginger Timplemen, his mother-in-law, on her cheek and walks away]

 

The movie will help us realize how hard it is to lose someone that we love.  As one of the taglines of the movie says, “Live every day like it’s the best day of your life”.  We often or a certain point in our lives at least, have neglected and took for granted those people we love and the sad part is we realize those things when they are gone.  Most people tend to focus on things such as material wealth, careers and other stuffs rather than putting their focus on their families.  Yes, it is hard to lose people that we love physically but to some of us, we also lose people through thoughts and actions.  This is what I loved about the movie, it didn’t only discussed Charlie’s loss through the death of his family but this also wants us to be reminded of Alan’s possibility of losing his family from his own doing by not letting his family into his life. 

I strongly believed when Charlie said that he is more worried about Alan than himself.  Because, unlike Charlie, who doesn’t have more of a choice but to let go of his family.  Alan is in the bridge of losing his family and wife through his own actions.  Worse, he is doing it unconsciously.

Like the main tagline says… Let in the unexpected… 

Sometimes, all we have to do is let our loved ones in.  Into our lives and it is how simple it is…    

Here’s the trailer of the movie, I hope you’d get inspired like me and try to watch and learn from this movie before it’s too late for us to do so.