I love running not only because it makes me fit and healthy but it’s a perfect time for me to listen to songs and internalize it.

Earlier, I’ve run my first 5k.  As always I’ve run with a companion and it’s my iPod.  I’ve put it on shuffle so I wouldn’t overplay songs that I already like but I still ended up doing so.

So what song was the culprit today? It is Adele’s “Turning Tables”.  Based on the register I have played the song 9 times and practically almost half of the time I ran.  It isn’t your usual upbeat running song but I liked it because it was a tough-bitter song with angst.  I’m actually surprised to find out that the song was co-written by Ryan Tedder and he actually did the piano of the song.  I just really love these lines from the song and I quote,

“Next time I’ll be braver,
I’ll be my own savior,
When the thunder calls for me,
Next time I’ll be braver,
I’ll be my own savior,
Standing on my own two feet,

I won’t let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won’t ask you, you to just desert me,
I can’t give you what you think you gave me,
It’s time to say goodbye to turning tables”

The song echoes the story of someone with a broken relationship, who’s unhappy with how his partner treated her.  Turning tables means manipulation and she’s saying good bye to this.  She has finally found her strength to be braver and to stand in her own two feet and rely on herself.  She’s keeping the distance from him so she could protect herself from more harm.  She just wants him to leave since she has nothing to give him anymore.

Earlier this year, I was forced to do what the character in the song had to do.  I had stood up on my own and started protecting myself from harm, from feeling more pain and anger.  I just had to end something that I thought I couldn’t live without which actually is just another case of being stubborn.  Sometimes, I tend to hold on to loving someone even if that someone doesn’t even care and know what my actual worth is.  But, it is just a phase I guess where everyone conveniently gets stuck with his own permission.  And like anyone who just came from a fall, I had risen above, stood up and shook every pain, anger, love and whatever’s left of it and started walking away.

I don’t want to sound bitter but I guess when you get hurt in the process the only way to go is to be numb.  I honestly couldn’t believe myself that I would be this strong and be cold hearted but I had to do what I had to do.  I just don’t want to be hurt anymore and I strongly believe that I’m my only savior and protector.  It’s hard to leave someone you’ve learned to love with all your heart but sometimes when the pieces don’t fit anymore it is pointless to be in that relationship.  It’s hard when you think about it but it’s the right thing to do, it’s the only way to do it.  Sorry but I had to say goodbye to turning tables, too.

 

 

I love Sara Bareilles because of her voice and her song Gravity is my favorite.  I love Ryan Tedder since I’ve heard him sing Apologize but I wasn’t really a fan.  Then I forgot when but my friend Sasha, a big Sara fan, gave me a link to this song Come Home which is collaboration between One Republic and Sara Bareilles.

I instantly fell in love with the song.  Whenever I hear Ryan’s voice I feel his emptiness and sadness and this song really suits him good.  I can even say that it’s perfect for him, perfect for both of them.  In my opinion, I think Ryan’s voice is haunting and I mean it in a good way.

The song is about missing someone who’s at war.  I just love how the song pleads to the world and send a message of disappointment on what our world have become.  It also makes you feel one’s frustration, the feeling of being tired of justifying about war and its benefits.  It talks about truth of longing for someone out there fighting and making things right and also with the hope that everything would be alright.

Begging and pleading someone to come home and for once stop fighting and start saving their own life, a life that one has envisioned and hoped for, a life that is made of two, together.

Pardon me I am in the zone and my brain was a little too in touch with the emotional side today.  I’m posting a YouTube link of the song so you’d appreciate it.


 

Today I woke up with one of the best feeling, I really felt happy and I didn’t know where it is coming from.  It was very positive and I didn’t take the chance to lose it.  I immediately grabbed my towel went to the bathroom, fixed my hair and brushed my teeth.  Put on my running shoes and attire.  Ran for an hour, loved the morning breeze and was so happy to see the morning sun.  Drank two cups of brewed coffee and ate a hearty breakfast.

This has to be the good life.  I have nothing to complain about.  I was just contented, satisfied and happy.  Got to talk to my parents and shared stories and checked up on them.

I just hope that every day is as happy as today and I’d try to keep it that way and I know I can.

From today, I’ll just try to pick as much positive things in life and forget about ranting and whining.  I know that it is hard to do but like what I’ve said, I’d keep the positivity handy.  Besides, I’ve got nothing but good things to be happy about.

I’m healthy, I’m well loved, I can buy things that I want, I have work, I have very supportive and amazing friends and lastly, I’m perfectly happy with my life, where I am now and what I’m doing.

I just love this day.  I’m ending my post by sharing to everyone this happy post and One Republic’s song, Good Life.  Let’s all be thankful for all the good things in our lives.  Remember, happiness is a choice!