the one with the burning one’s bridges

Exactly a month ago yesterday I have this close friend who got mad at me for some reasons I don’t exactly know.  I have an idea of what it is but I can’t classify it as something that will make me burn my own bridges with a friend.

Well you might be wondering why I am using that idiom.  Well at least from my stand point it is as if she is.  I mean, would you say such a thing like “I am busy and I don’t have time for that and I don’t think I will find time for that!” when asked by a friend of how you and your friend are doing?

Can anyone just tell me that I’m getting all of this in the wrong context?  Anyway, I am not really mad, in fact, after the so-called fight/misunderstanding I’ve texted her.  Two weeks ago, I’ve sent her a message again.

I am the kind of friend who will try his best to extend his patience to a friend.  Not that I am expecting her to do that to me because I know and I was told that I shouldn’t.  But isn’t it if you were really friends, I think your friend at least deserves to know what’s the problem.  Not only for your own benefit, not only because it is the right to do but because it is for your friend’s growth, too.

This is what happens to friends in a relationship where they don’t actually open to each other.  I mean, what’s the point of having the relationship maybe, what the other party needs is just temporary filler in the space.  But sorry, I can’t be that person.

I treat my friends like they are my own siblings and sometimes like my own child.  It is really sad to be treated like this but I have to let go of this.  This will be unhealthy for me.  Besides, I have done my part.  No matter how hard I try to fight for the relationship, I guess there’s no point when the other party has just decided not to fight for it, too.

I just hope that the space that we have right now will be for the benefit of all.  Today, our world may not be as close like before but I know that our lives are somehow intertwined.  We have the same set of friends for years and later on she can’t stop running in circles and have to face the sad fact that she has to see my ugly face.

I just hope that this move of her won’t limit her dealings with our other friends because I honestly disagree with it.  Anyway, this is really sad and frustrating.  I can only do so much and I have to learn not to mind it.  It’s not easy but she just made it one.  The open time and space may not really work for the best but what can I do, I am left with no other choice but to.

 

the one with the proposal

Time really flies so fast it has been 5 years since my favorite show Friends aired their finale episode.  It was like ending and era for me.  I can still remember I would never miss an episode of it.  I make sure that I go home in Cavite during those years.  Friends and officemates have wondered why I go home in the middle of the week considering that I have classes or work the next day.  Plus, it is very hard to go home on Wednesdays because of Baclaran day but that never stopped me and that’s how much I love the show. 

I’ve told myself that I’d complete the collection however costly it would be for me.  During those times buying the original CDs are too expensive.  So, I started with buying 1-2 CDs per payday until it became more and more as the paydays gone by.  Thanks for the company’s union that they have assured me of salary increase year every year.

I just knew that having this collection will come in handy when the days go blue for me.  This show can really crack me up, and have me laughing out loud while rolling in the floor thing.  And just recently, I get to see some reruns on television and it is just very comforting to see it.

Well, my most favorite episode was when Chandler proposed to Monica.  The hanger (2^nd to the finale episode of Season 6^th) made my heart leap.  Just thinking of breaking the Chandler-Monica love story is such an insane idea.  I loved their story than Ross-Rachel’s love story.  I just felt the connection with them.  I find it more romantic having two friends loving each other, becoming each other’s people.

It just amazing!  From the time they had their first sex to the time that they hid it from the pack.  Up to their first major fight and most especially the time that Chandler proposed to Monica.  I hope you enjoy this because I really do!

Writing this post just make me want to watch the whole thing again.  I just want to relive those days and be happy again.  I just miss them so much.  The cast will always have a very special part in my life.  They really do.

 

Chandler: I can’t believe I ruined this.
Joey: I am so sorry man. (Chandler walks dejectedly into his apartment to find it lit with about a thousand candles and Monica standing in the living room.)
Monica: You wanted it to be a surprise. (He turns to look at Joey who smiles slyly and closes the door leaving them alone.)
Chandler: Oh my God. (Monica gets down on one knee)
Monica: Chandler, in all my life I never thought I would be so lucky. (Starting to cry) As to fall in love with my best, my best, There’s a reason why girls don’t do this!
Chandler: Okay! (He joins her on one knee) Okay! Okay! I’ll do it! Oh God, I thought (Starting to cry, pauses) Wait a minute, I-I can do this. (Pause) I thought that it mattered what I said or where I said it. Then I realized the only thing that matters is that you, (Pause) you make me happier than I ever thought I could be. (Starting to cry again) And if you’ll let me, I will spend the rest of my life trying to make you feel the same way. (Pause as he gets out the ring) Monica, will you marry me?
Monica: Yes. (He puts the ring on her finger. They hug and kiss this time as an engaged couple.)
Monica: I knew you were likely to take a wife! (They hug again.)
 

 

the one with my 14K friends

“Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light.”
– Helen Keller

I have always valued my friends like they are my siblings. Spending time with them is really worth all the treasure in the world. I would fight for them when the need arises. I am someone who will assure you that I’d watch my friends back all the time.

I have also believed in that friendship is an effort. And this is one of the reasons, why I try hard to keep my close friends in tact. Sometimes I get tired of setting and organizing events or activities for us but seeing them all at the same place and time makes it worth all the troubles of planning.

As the saying goes, “Many people will walk in and out of your life but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.” My UST friends, the 14K are a classic example of this adage.

Fortunately, one of my 14K friends, Nestle is here in the Philippines for an almost 3-week visit. And as always, being the very accommodating friend, I promised her of a Boracay trip of which I thought wasn’t really that serious. Then, I got a call from her because she was so pissed off me because I have forgotten to arrange the promise that I have given almost a month ago.

So a day after that call I found myself looking an affordable flight and voila! I find myself booking a flight with Agnes, who confirmed 2 days after.

This is the 2nd time that I am traveling with my UST friends. The first time was actually last year when Aissa visited us, we went to Puerto Galera, and it was two days after my birthday.

Aldrin also one of our friends even teased me that the trip was so unplanned and that I am just afraid to lose a friend. Well, maybe it is somehow true but what I was really thinking was this is a different experience. This is something worth doing and I couldn’t miss anything for my friends and Boracay as well. Aside from that, I really miss spending quality time with my friends and this is a perfect opportunity. If I could have my way, I would prefer having the rest of the guys go with us, but the idealism came too short and reality bit of my senses too fast.

I’d be posting more about the trip separately but for now I am sharing some of the pictures from the trip that makes the whole thing as something that will remind me of a best thing in my life. It is having friends around…

No one could ever know me; no one could ever see me.
Seems like you’re the only one who knows what it’s like to be me.
Someone to face the day with, make it through all the rest with,
Someone I’ll always laugh with, even at my worst, I’m best with you.
— From Friends theme “I’ll be there for you”

 

@ jonah's after the tattoo and hair braiding activities

 

 

gimmick @ guilly's

 

paraw sailing

 

flying fish

 

the one with F-R-I-E-N-D-S

No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you’re the only one who knows what it’s like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I’ll always laugh with
Even in my worst, I’m best with you

 

 

 

These lines are taken from the theme of my most favorite show of all time.  FRIENDS!  Just recently news came out that talks are being made for a possible movie.  And if there’s a truth to the rumor, I’d probably be one of the happiest people in the world.  I can’t even describe how anxious and excited I am upon hearing that.

I really miss this show so much… Watching it over and over isn’t enough. It’s been years since the show ended and still I can’t get over it… (Hahaha) And whenever I try to watch it I always end up screaming on top of my lungs and laugh ’til I drop thing…

Seeing it for ten years was really one hell of fun.  Going home early on a Wednesday night was my routine for a decade… I’d cancel or refuse a date or event just because it’s Friends night…

Well, one of my favorite episode is when Chandler proposed to Monica… The 6th season ender was the bomb!  It was really very touching and romantic.  I just couldn’t believe that they’d end up together and it really made sense so much.  I can truly honestly say that I am so happy for them. 

I have a lot of other fave episodes and if I’d name it I’d probably run out of space.  The good thing about the show was, it didn’t only make me laugh but it has inspired me, too.  And through out those ten years, I think I have manifested some of the characters’ personality.

Well to start with, I’m uniquely weird like Phoebe.  I’d fight for a friend like Joey, I’m competitive and attention freak like Monica… have a pathetic love life like Ross.  I am push over at times like Rachel and definitely I have a lot of funny antics like Chandler.

Ending Friends for me was totally like ending an era… 

Friends will always be my friends…