the one with Just Say Yes

I know I’ve been wrong before but I’ve also been right. 

I know that I’m feeling unsure today but who aren’t? 

I’ve always been overcritical when all I need is to enjoy.

I’m afraid but I can’t stop myself from testing the water.

I’ve agreed but I want something else.

I’m tight but I get excited easily.

 

A summary in macro of what I have in my mind right now.

 

The first time I’ve heard the song “Just Say Yes” by Snow Patrol, I’ve felt that something smacked right through my heart.  The song’s applicability to me is more on the subject rather than a specific person. 

 

It is as if Love is trying to enlighten me, it is tired of telling me that I should trust it again.  That I should loosen up and enjoy every moment that I have.

 

I want to do that but I’m just having a little issue inside of me.

 

And I think I’m just complicated!

 

Anyway, I’d like to share the link of the song and the lyrics as well.

 

Just Say Yes

I’m running out of ways to make you see
I want you to stay here beside me
I won’t be ok and I won’t pretend I am
So just tell me today and take my hand
Please take my hand
Please take my hand

Just say yes, just say there’s nothing holding you back
It’s not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

It’s so simple and you know it is
You know it is, yeah
We can’t be to and fro like this
All our lives
You’re the only way to me
The path is clear
What do I have to say to you
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear

Just say yes, just say there’s nothing holding you back
It’s not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

Just say yes, coz Im aching and I know you are too
For the touch of your warm skin
As I breathe you in

I can feel your heart beat through my shirt
This was all I wanted, all I want
Its all I want
Its all I want
Its all I want
Its all I want

Just say yes, just say there’s nothing holding you back
It’s not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

Just say yes, coz Im aching and I know you are too
For the touch of your warm skin
As I breathe you in

 

the one with Dying

I have proven so many times that I can easily write when I don’t feel like talking.  I don’t usually wake up lonely but today was something different.  Today is a day of I don’t trust myself.  I’m not fretting because I just know that I’ve done something stupid.  There are days that I don’t want to hear sad songs because it can only make me cry.  And today is one of them.

 

As one friend have told me, it’s hard to enjoy and disassociate having feelings with someone because enjoying is in itself a feeling.  I just feel so unsure today.  I’m torn on choosing between enjoying and believing that I can still enjoy.

 

And it doesn’t help when you get to hear a song like Dying by Five for Fighting.  I was able to hear this song today and I really liked the part, “I’m dying to forget about you”.  I don’t know why.  I just feel like that I’m kidding myself.  I’ve never imagined myself entertaining a complicated situation.

 

I knew it. I shouldn’t have started it in the first place.  I didn’t plan this but it happened.  I hate myself for losing my sense when I knew from the start that there’s no such thing.  And it gets harder each day because I’m actually enjoying his company minus the assurance of the possibility where it is going.

 

I’m not sad but I’m just thinking of if I should still continue this?  I guess, I have to look for other reasons first before I totally take the next step.  Not today but anytime soon.  And like the song Dying, I need to find a distraction to get myself away for a while.

 

 

Dying – Five for Fighting

 

I’m Dying, Dying to wake up without you, without you in my head again

I’m Dying, Dying to forget about you, that you ever lived

There’s a shade come over this heart that’s coping with laying down to rest

I’m Dying to live without you again

 

I’m Dying, Dying to find a distraction, get you away from me

I’m Dying, Dying to reach a conclusion, so that the world can see

It’s the same old story of love and glory that broke before it bent

I’m Dying to live without you again

 

The first time you left I said goodbye

Now there’s not a prayer that can survive

 

Dying, Dying to die just to come back so we can meet again

Dying, Dying to say what I always should have said

It’s a strange emotion this but there’s still hope in this

As long as there’s a breath…

I’m Dying and I can’t live without you again

 

It’s a strange emotion this but there’s still hope in this

As long as there’s a breath…

 

I’m Dying and I can’t live without you

I’m Dying and I can’t live without you again

 

the one with Glee

If you are having a bad day and you’re tired of singing Daniel Powter’s Bad Day, I am recommending you this show.  Glee is one hell of fun and hilarious show.

From one character to another, you’d surely go crazy over them.

I love the demented characters of course.  First there is Sue, who’s so jaded and wants to be the center of attention.  And of course, there’s Will’s wife Terri who’s selfish and self-centered and Emma who’s almost mistaken as insane for being too obsessive.

But that’s just the start of the countless reasons why you’ll get addicted to it.

The casts’ talents would really be the major reason.  The ensemble’s showmanship in terms of dance, song and delivery is really superb.

Words wouldn’t be enough to describe how good this show is.  Just picture this, I was supposed to do some work this week end but I wasn’t able to do this because I can’t seem to stop watching it.

Anyway, I liked Puck’s performance of the song Sweet Caroline by Neil Diamond, let’s say that I just didn’t expect that he has a good voice and I find it sexy.  So, I’m just sharing this link.

Again, if you are in need of happy thoughts and temporary fix for happiness, Glee is a must-see show.

Where it began, I can’t begin to know when
But then I know it’s growing strong
Oh, wasn’t the spring, whooo
And spring became the summer
Who’d believe you’d come along

Hands, touching hands, reaching out
Touching me, touching you
Oh, sweet Caroline
Good times never seem so good
I’ve been inclined to believe it never would

And now I, I look at the night, whooo
And it don’t seem so lonely
We fill it up with only two, oh
And when I hurt
Hurting runs off my shoulder
How can I hurt when holding you

Oh, one, touching one, reaching out
Touching me, touching you
Oh, sweet Caroline
Good times never seem so good
Oh I’ve been inclined to believe it never would

Ohhh, sweet Caroline, good times never seem so good

 

the one with the 101 in 1001

Out of lack of interesting thing to do with my life I’ve decided to do this 101 in 1001.  I’ve read this from a former follower in Twitter.  Take note of the use of “former follower” because I had to block him off the list because he’s one of the most jaded people in the whole world and that’s another story but I chose to write more of pleasant things today. 

 

I wasn’t really going to pursue this but when I started counting the days, starting with November 1^st of this year and it ends on my mom’s birthday on July 28, 2012.  So I took it as a sign and decided to continue with this so-called project.

 

I’m not actually quite sure if I can do this but I say everyone needs a little challenge.  So things in the list are relatively easy, some like me is crazy.  I’m not even sure if this can all be done in less than three years.  I’ve got some friends opinion as well.  Making up a list isn’t easy.  I’ve got to consider the chances or possibilities of attainment.  Being a certified obsessive-compulsive, this list won’t help me at all.

 

So, I’ll just make an update a year after or as soon as I have achieved one crazy thing from the list. 

 

If you’d like to check what I’m talking about it is displayed as a separate page of this blog and I’ll cross out the things that I’ve done once I have achieved them.

 

the one with Almost Normal

The Brothers & Sisters’ Season 4 Episode 3 entitled Almost Normal really made me cry.  This is what I love with this show, it helps me clear my tear ducts and it can also make me laugh on top of my lungs.

Kitty finally told the family that she has cancer in this episode.  I really have to say that this show is blessed with a very amazing ensemble.  You can see the actors’ true emotion and you’ll totally feel for them.  My favorite part is the last 4 minutes of the episode.  (And as customary for me, I’d share it of course with you).  And, every time I replay the part, I still find myself crying.  The support of her family and their determination to fight the disease was really overwhelming.  Nothing beats the presence of loved ones during a situation like this.  Who wouldn’t brace a storm with a support as robust as that?  And Sarah’s arrival and as she hug Kitty made me cry over and over coupled with the lyrics from the song “Have a Little Faith”.

♪ Just have a little faith in me

Uh huh

I’ll have a little faith in you

So have a little faith in me

Don’t let it go

Don’t let it go

Don’t let it go

Don’t let it go

Don’t let it go

Just be strong for me

I’ll be strong for you ♪

I guess what really made me cry is I can totally relate to it.  Over a week ago, I’ve just found myself considering flying to the US this coming Christmas vacation.  All for the reason that I want to see my sister.  You see there are times in our lives that the touch of someone gives us comfort and assurance that everything will be alright.  And I needed that last week.  How I wish I can just go there within a snap of my fingers but unfortunately I can’t.  I just miss her so much.

As promised, I am sharing the last 4 minutes of the episode from Brothers and Sisters.  I hope you’ll like it and if you have the chance to watch the whole show, I’m sure you’ll totally like it.  I’m also sharing Michael Franti’s “Have a Little Faith”.