the one with the happy pill

Things aren’t that great lately but this thing really got me excited today and for the coming week end get away.

I’ll be out of the country from Saturday afternoon until Tuesday.  When I’ve planned this trip with my good friend, Helki, it was all out of adventure trip and fun.  But today, I need this trip more than anything else in this world.

I’m not depressed but I have to think things over and start weighing things all over again.  I just feel that the pieces don’t fit anymore.  Again, I’m still doing great; I just need some space and time to think.

And I’ll be doing it here.  

 

 

When I get back hopefully everything will be different.  A happy pill is all I need but then again happiness is a choice, I guess I ain’t gonna need the pill anymore.

 

the one with Kelly Clarkson Live

I waited for a moment like this.  I promised myself that I’d never commit the same mistake when Mariah Carey visited the country and I’d buy a good seat just to see Kelly Clarkson Live.  That’s the dream, when I’ve learned that I’d be visiting the US this coming May, I have started to look for tour dates of Duncan Sheik and Kelly Clarkson but I haven’t found one.

And yesterday, someone that I’m following on twitter tweeted about this site (click here) and voila! Kelly Clarkson will be going here to perform live.  I can’t wait for the concert.  Luckily, the concert date is 20 days early than my tentative flight to the US.

I have this feeling that this tour will be about the latest album “All I Ever Wanted” and I’m sure she’d play hits from previous 3 albums.  But what I’m wishing for right now is for her to sing “Beautiful Disaster” if she does, you can kill me after that song.

Anyway, it but rightful to link this song since I’ve really waited for this moment and I’m also linking the website where it all started.

 

the one with the adventure trip

I have planned this upcoming trip with my good friend Helki but due to some personal reason, I might take this trip alone.  I am still remaining hopeful that I’d travel with her.  Aside from the fact that it would be fun to have her on a trip, it would be also a great time to bond, talk and do new stuffs together.

Though traveling alone wouldn’t be a problem since I’m also looking forward to do an adventure travel as this is part of my 101 things to do in 1001 days.  Well, I’m that adventurous, surprised? I don’t think so.

Today I really planned to post at least two entries so I’d make up for this month’s slow movement of my blog.  Well, actually the past month and this month was really a drag since I wasn’t able to post much.

Now I know the difference between having a real life and virtual life.  Before I used to say that it’s not possible not to maintain your blog because especially when so much is happening around you.  I find it very weird since you’ll have lot of things to say, then it happened and dawned on me.  I totally neglected the fact that when you’re busy doing and enjoying stuffs out there, you tend to lose some of your virtual life of which I can’t complain.  I have no problem about it.

Though I miss some friends from way back, I guess it’s the price of enjoying too much.  Besides, I don’t get to feel that they do miss me back.  Some of them yes because they are my good friends but most of them miss me for convenience, and sad to say I’m a changed man today.

Anyway, I’ve spent the whole afternoon and evening researching on things to do in this trip, preparing for the budget, looking for the cheapest accommodation and transfers.  Yes, you’ve read it right; this travel might entail transfer from one place to another.  To give you an idea where I am going here are some pictures of the place I’m planning to visit in two weeks time.

 

the one with the genius

Last weekend I was off for a drive and I have decided to put my IPod on shuffle.  I’m not a fan of random stuffs since I want to listen to an organized playlist but I still tried anyway.

Glad that I tried that because while doing so I came across Duncan Sheik’s Genius from the “Daylight” album and reminded me of something that I want right now.

The song simply means when you need to ask for forgiveness to your special someone then do.  If you are sorry and you want to continue everything and don’t want to risk losing everything then what are you waiting for?  Just be sincere and ensure that you won’t do it again. 

And, the geniuses being referred to and mirrored on the contrary are us, poor lovers who can’t seem to know what else to do but to love.

But these lines are sucker,

“You don’t really need to know every last detail.

It’s hardly worth telling

Suffice to say I said that I would be there”

Actually you can have another take on this, like me, (strictly on the lines above only) this is my actual dilemma right now.  I am not asking for too much, I don’t even need to know every little detail I don’t even want to hear that he’ll be there when I need him to.  I don’t need any reassurance but what I want is to feel it that he wants it that way and he’ll just be.  As simple as that but I know it’s something far from what can be done.

Anyway, I’m just sharing this link from MTV Philippines Live, Genius is the 2^nd song.  I miss Duncan Sheik I hope I can watch him perform live again and I’m targeting it on May.

 

Clearly I’m a genius

If she only knew it

But somewhere in her radius

I really blew it

I know, I know what I said to her

And I know what I did

What I don’t know is how I could ever be

So incredibly stupid

 

 

Chorus:

 

[You don’t really need to know every last detail.

It’s hardly worth telling

Suffice to say I said that I would be there

I never came through]

 

 

Maybe I’m a genius and

She just don’t see it

I fronted,

I should have admitted,

She saw right through it

I never thought that I could be

So underhanded.

Somehow I’ve cornered the market on

The double standard

 

Chorus

 

For this act of genius

And so many others

I know I should apologize

And see how it goes

 

What am I waiting for?

Come on, come on, come on, come on

 

Sha la la la la la sha la la la la la la la

 

To all of the geniuses…

 Chorus

 

the one with the spelling bee

 

I have always been in love with the theatre.  Back in high school, I have directed our 3 major class plays.  The three major class plays are the following Florante at Laura, Noli Me Tangere and El Filibusterismo.  Not only have I directed it but I also played a major part because of lack of number of boys in the class to play the part in short, that part is inevitable.

And during my senior year, I was able to audition and be a part of the school theatre guild, unfortunately I wasn’t able to finish the term and I had to prioritize my other extra-curricular activities.

I once dreamed of going into theatre and leaving my corporate life.  But, unfortunately aside from the exchange of wage and security of tenure, I also lack the actual talent to pursue such endeavor.

Anyway, this post is actually about the musical play I have watched last December 6^th 2009.  Yeah, this post is really delayed.  I even have one to be drafted and it’s about Sweeney Todd.

These are the things that I’ve learned from watching the musical play “Spelling Bee”:

• Olive when you interchange the first 2 vowels will spell out, “I love”

This is more of a random fact rather than an actual lesson.

 

• Living out someone else’s dreams

It’s always hard to live out of someone else’s expectation like our parents.  I guess, my 3 other siblings were victim of this unfortunately.  It is sad to see them live my father’s dreams and we get to live ours.  But everything has a reason; I just refuse to believe them.

 

• Life with fewer expectations.

This one is something that I am doing right now.  It is not only applicable with life but with love as well.  In life/love when you set fewer expectations you get lesser frustrations.  You live to learn, and learn to enjoy everything that comes your way.  It is easier this way.

 

Spelling bee is really a fun play to watch.  There’s audience participation, too.  It was light and comedic.  I just hope I’ll get to watch more plays this year.  I’d be watching Rent this coming February.

 

This post is a little short and I’m quite disappointed.  It looks like its just filler.  I hope I can go back to this post again and edit it and make sense.  My apologies friends!

 

 

 

the one with the 40,000 hits

 

Yesterday after a month and 1 week my blog views reached another 5,000 hits.

Anyway, the following are the highlights of this update:

• Highest # of views in a day was recorded last November 7^th with 334 views
• Highest views in a month totaled to 7,093 this October 2009
• Highest average views in a day 229 in a month during October

And sadly, if you’d look at my previous post regarding the highlights from the last updates basically remain unchanged.  The highest and most viewed post is still “The one with the Chevy impala” which is Supernatural (the series) related.  It has also the most number of comments which totaled to 30.

Lately, I have been busy with stuffs limiting my capacity to update my blog.  Well, it is a nice sign at least that I have more life today than my yesterdays.  Ha-ha! Anyway but I promise to write about a trip to Davao and make a review of the two plays that I’ve watched last December.

Anyway, all I want to thank my friends and loyal readers for always visiting my work.  I promise to give and write more interesting stuffs in the future.

 

 

the one with the gentleman

When I first learned that Ne-yo will be having a concert, I immediately informed my two friends who are big fans.  I didn’t even think of planning to watch it with one of them.  Okay, I was just lying.  I actually wished I had the insanity and courage to buy concert tickets for two.

Then one day I was convinced by a friend to actually buy the tickets.  I guess I just needed someone to back me up with the plan.  Do you think I’m crazy?  Hmm, I actually think I am but there’s no complaining especially after last night.

I had so much fun and it was a blast.  I actually became a fan of the fan.  He’s funny and cute.  He had no qualms on singing and dancing along while the concert is ongoing.  He’d certainly enjoyed the night and so did I.

But I just find the show a little short in terms of length of actual production time.  Good thing is I think Ne-yo’s performance was my money’s worth.  He just played most of his hits and the ones that he composed for other artists.  Maybe the frustration is coming from my weird idea of listening to all of his albums prior to the actual show.  I had to look for his 3 albums so I won’t end up being out of place.

Anyway, I’d end this post with Ne-yo’s latest single “Never Knew I Needed”.   This song perfectly fits my life right now.  I have just found myself being in a situation where I never knew I’d be at.  I didn’t expect to find my perfect distraction and be actually a part of my book and life.

(ooh) for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing (oh yeah)
for the ending of my first begin
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
and for the rare and unexpected friend
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
for the way you’re something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don’t wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it’s so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily (ever after) (oh oh oh)
the way you slime and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you’re the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (that i needed)
so now it’s so clear i need you here always

who’d knew that i’d be here (who’d knew that i’d be here oh oh)
so unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)
undeniablely happy (hey)
said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)

girl you’re the..
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (said i needed oh oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (needed oh)
so now it’s so clear i need you here always
baby baby
now it’s so clear i need you here always

 

the one with the Year 2009

1.  What did you do in 2009 that you’ve never done before?

• Be an active member of the TMR forum and RX activities, go to the US and ask someone out on a date.

2.  Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

• I don’t usually do new years’ resolutions but I’m doing 101 things to do in 1001 days that will end July 28, 2012.  So far, I have achieved 3 out of the 101 in the list.

3.  Did anyone close to you give birth?

• My friends Thea and Agnes.

4.  Did anyone close to you die?

• Luckily none.

5.  What country did you visit?

• I was able to visit US last February

6.  What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?

• A romantic relationship with someone.

7.  What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

• February 23 to March 20 – took a month of vacation in the US
• September 26 – my 1^st Rusher’s EB and experienced Ondoy
• October 21 and December 28 – 1^st and last dinner with my cookie monster for the year 2009

8.  What was your biggest achievement of the year?

• Going back to the dating scene and finding someone to love

9.  What was your biggest failure?

• Wasn’t able to transfer to a new work or change career

10.  Did you suffer illness or injury?

• No major illness and injury just had allergic reaction and some signs of aging.

11.  What was/were the best thing/s you bought?

• Airplane tickets, new phone, net book and 3 pairs of shoes

12.  Where did most of your money go?

• Travel, food, shoes and gadgets

13.  What did you get really, really, really excited about?

• Travel to the US, monthly Rusher’s EB and love life

14.  What songs will always remind you of 2009?

• I’ve got a feeling, Already Gone, Cry, Knock Knock and Ready

15.  Compared to this time last year, are you:

• Happier or sadder? Happier of course! ‘Coz happiness is a choice!
• Thinner or fatter? Fatter and 2 more lbs. to target (140 lbs.)
• Richer or poorer? Not so sure but perhaps I can say Richer!

16.  What do you wish you’d done more of?

• Being patient – (I’ve got a lot of bitchy moments), and attendance in the monthly Rusher’s EB

17.  What do you wish you’d done less of?

• Being bitchy and brat
  

18.  How did you be spend the holidays?

• With just my siblings, simple dinner and chat with beer session

19.  Did you fall in love in 2009?

• Yes, I think so.

20.  How many one-night stands?

• I don’t do this

21.  What were your favorite TV programs this year?

• Old -  Supernatural, Brothers and Sisters and American Idol
• New -  NCIS, True Blood

22.  Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

• Luckily none.

23.  What was the best book you read?

• I’ve just read 3 books this year and I liked Milan Kundera’s “The Book of Laughter and Forgetting”

24.  What was your greatest musical discovery?

• Lenka

25.  What did you want and got?

• Travel the US and got the chance to spend a month vacation

26.  What were your favorite films of this year?

• Avatar, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

27.  What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

• It was a 2-day celebration with my high school barkada Elmer, Thea and Pi-Anne.  We went to San Francisco partied at Castro’s, went to the city and roamed around.  Bought tons of CDs at Rasputin Records, dined at Olive Gardens and tasted the best Cheesecake I’ve ever tasted.
• 2^nd day was with my family, went to the Golden Gate and dined at the Pier.
• By the way, I turned 30.
  

28.  What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

• If I were able to enter into a romantic relationship, I guess.

29.  What kept you sane?

• Overflowing love from new friends, the Rushers of course!

30.  What political issue stirred you the most?

• I don’t usually listen to politics, I find it very annoying but I think the upcoming May 2010 elections and the presidential candidates, I guess.

31.  Who did you miss?

• My good friends from UST Ruth, Amy and Lanie this year was really different.

32.  Who was the best new person you met?

• Joe – who introduced me to the Rushers.  I owe him the happiness that I have right now.
• Helki – my kambal and partner in crime
• Dru – my love doctor, brother and the fashion diva
• Stephen – my kontrabida and like a brother
  
• Noel – big brother, the very supportive friend
• Oscar – the famous ODH, the nicest person I’ve ever met
• Ron – moja bro, the very objective friend
• And Jobert – Jason, the kyutlit and hopefully the cookie monster of my life

33.  Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:

• Just say yes especially to love.
• Don’t be afraid on taking chances.
• Don’t give up; give others the chance, nobody’s perfect.
• Happiness is a choice.