the one with Lean on Me

Glee is so much fun to watch.  If you’d find yourself wallowing and whining about sadness and you need to be perked up, I recommend you to watch it 100%.

I really liked the ending of episode 10.  The last song is what I needed to be reminded of.

Just this week, there are nights that I felt like I’m lonely and sad.  I don’t usually get this feeling that much.  That’s why when I feel a little low; I select few sensible friends that I know I can talk to or listen to me as I whine and rant about things.

But unfortunately, I was disappointed.  More on myself than the person I tried to connect with.  I’ve put so much expectation and miscalculated everything.  I should have not put too much pressure on someone and should have listened to what he was saying.

I hate it when I have disagreements with those whom I treasure much.  I feel like I have failed them and I just like to feel awkward when I get to see them.  I hate having or putting gaps.  But what can I do these things happen. I just hope that I can rectify and make him realize that what I needed that time is someone who can just listen and respect that I deserve to have some lonely moments, too even if I’m perky and all.

I just want someone whom I can lean on and listen to me when I’m down.  Was it too much to ask?  I guess so.  Don’t get me wrong, I don’t discount friends if they don’t meet my expectations or needs.  I just want them to feel that sometimes I also feel sad and needy.  I just want them to see that there’s also the other side of me.

Anyway, hearing Lean on Me on Glee is like getting an assurance that I have friends who can do that to me.  At least, that’s what I try to believe in and I know I have them around me.

So here it is I’m sharing the clip from the show.  Enjoy!

 

the one with the winter song

I have been watching Brothers and Sisters for the past 4 seasons and I’m totally in love with the series.  I’d see to it that I’d watch it immediately as soon as I have the copy of the latest episode.  It makes me cry and it cracks me up as well.

The show is something that you can really relate with and you’d find yourself connected with the characters since all of us have family matters to deal with.

And in my case, I can see a big deal of myself in Sarah Walker.  Her personality, very strong-willed and would sacrifice her own happiness for the family.  She’s successful and the provider.  She’s the woman of today and she knows what she needs and wants.

And in the latest episode “Wine Party”, Sarah finds herself asking Luc what they are and where the relationship is going.  She’s tired from always being the one in command and taking responsibility and happiness isn’t enough for her to continue on.  She’s asking for more and I think as she should be.

Lately, I found myself in the same road.  You see, I was misinterpreted and it turned out everything slipped away.  It was turning out to be good at the start but I can’t seem to be contented with what I have.  This time I want to be taken care of.  I want someone who can lead me and all I’d do is follow.  I want it to be real.

Well, my story is actually more complicated but one thing that I share with Sarah is I know what I want and I know what’s good for me.  And I don’t want to continue on something that I might be sorry for later on.

I’d rather lose it right now than lose myself in the long run.

I’m sharing the video clip from the show where Sarah found out that Luc is breaking it off.  The scene coupled with the song “Winter Song” by Sara Bareilles featuring Ingrid Michaelson struck me directly and piercing me in my heart.

It made me think if like Sarah have I make the right choice?  But then again, I know I did.  Anyway, here are the links of the videos.  Enjoy!

Winter Song

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This is my winter song to you.
The storm is coming soon,
It rolls in from the sea

My voice; a beacon in the night.
My words will be your light,
To carry you to me.

Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love

They say that things just cannot grow
Beneath the winter snow,
Or so I have been told.

They say were buried far,
Just like a distant star
I simply cannot hold.

Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?

This is my winter song.
December never felt so wrong,
Cause you’re not where you belong;
Inside my arms.

Bum bum bum bum bum bum bum bum
Bum bum bum bum bum bum
Bum bum bum bum bum bum

I still believe in summer days.
The seasons always change
and life will find a way.

Ill be your harvester of light
and send it out tonight
so we can start again.

Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?

This is my winter song.
December never felt so wrong,
Cause you’re not where you belong;
Inside my arms.

This is my winter song to you.
The storm is coming soon
It rolls in from the sea.

My love a beacon in the night.
My words will be your light
To carry you to me.

Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?

 

the one with the Beautiful Awakening

This is a repost from 2007.

How about having a disclaimer for a start…  Well, I have noticed that writing is really more of inspiration to me.  I need to be motivated to come up with a composition.  And most of the time, my depression and tragedy set the mood for me to do it.  Lately, I have been making up these beautiful choices that led me to be happy and contented.  Sometimes, we just need to know that we made a nice deal for ourselves despite the outcome and we just have to be pleased with it.

Life isn’t perfect.  I’ve learned to accept that fact and embrace fully.  I’ve set my mind to be contented with what I have.

Sometimes, I just feel that life’s too boring; my days are becoming so predictable.  Fun is so much to be hoped for.

But I guess I still have plenty of reasons to be happy, too.  Well, I don’t really need to pinpoint one by one the major reasons, why I am.  Because the truth is, there’s really no list or whatsoever.   I just know that I need to be thankful of the nice things that happened in my life and the chance of journeying it in the most perfect way I believe I can.

Life’s simply amazing…  It’s how you actually chose it to be.  God gave us life for us to make most out of it.  There’s no might have been and could have been.  Live life according to what you want it to be, and believe in God and everything will follow.

This is the beautiful awakening, and I hope you’ll have yours, too.

With this post I am also sharing Stacie Orrico’s Beautiful Awakening.  Hope you like it!

 

the one with the 30,000 hits

The following are the highlights of this update:

• Highest # of views in a day was recorded last November 7^th with 334 views
• Highest views in a month totaled to 7,093 this October 2009
• Highest average views in a day 229 in a month during October but November is running on 257 per day

One down side of doing this update and being obsessive at times (haha!) is I’m pressured to come up with at least two posts in a week.  But lately, I’ve been busy with the so-called real life and I can’t seem to find the right inspiration as well to have my write-ups finished.

Right now, I have at least 3 topics that I have in mind but don’t have the time to start it.

I guess what I am trying to say is, I just want to entertain the readers of this blog and buy their attention so they’d come back for more.  Anyway, all I want to thank my friends and loyal readers for always visiting my work.  I promise to give and write more interesting stuffs in the future.

 

the one with Just Say Yes

I know I’ve been wrong before but I’ve also been right. 

I know that I’m feeling unsure today but who aren’t? 

I’ve always been overcritical when all I need is to enjoy.

I’m afraid but I can’t stop myself from testing the water.

I’ve agreed but I want something else.

I’m tight but I get excited easily.

 

A summary in macro of what I have in my mind right now.

 

The first time I’ve heard the song “Just Say Yes” by Snow Patrol, I’ve felt that something smacked right through my heart.  The song’s applicability to me is more on the subject rather than a specific person. 

 

It is as if Love is trying to enlighten me, it is tired of telling me that I should trust it again.  That I should loosen up and enjoy every moment that I have.

 

I want to do that but I’m just having a little issue inside of me.

 

And I think I’m just complicated!

 

Anyway, I’d like to share the link of the song and the lyrics as well.

 

Just Say Yes

I’m running out of ways to make you see
I want you to stay here beside me
I won’t be ok and I won’t pretend I am
So just tell me today and take my hand
Please take my hand
Please take my hand

Just say yes, just say there’s nothing holding you back
It’s not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

It’s so simple and you know it is
You know it is, yeah
We can’t be to and fro like this
All our lives
You’re the only way to me
The path is clear
What do I have to say to you
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear

Just say yes, just say there’s nothing holding you back
It’s not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

Just say yes, coz Im aching and I know you are too
For the touch of your warm skin
As I breathe you in

I can feel your heart beat through my shirt
This was all I wanted, all I want
Its all I want
Its all I want
Its all I want
Its all I want

Just say yes, just say there’s nothing holding you back
It’s not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

Just say yes, coz Im aching and I know you are too
For the touch of your warm skin
As I breathe you in